My name is Amber, and I created this blog site to offer support, compassion and a place for women to feel uplifted, and most importantly not alone, when it comes to struggling with infertility. Trying to conceive and struggling with infertility is just difficult, painful, and a roller coaster of emotions. 6.1 million women in the United States struggle with this, and yet we don’t talk about it?! Ladies, you are not alone…lets start talking about this. I’d like to begin by sharing some of my history, and hopefully bringing some insight, humor, and companionship to you.
I currently live in Arvada, Colorado with my husband Rick. We are both Colorado natives (there are so few of us left). You may be thinking I’m some sort of professional skier or snowboarder, having lived in Colorado my entire life, but quite the contrary. I dislike all things cold and I am an embarrassment to the ski and snowboarding community. My husband on the other hand is a very talented skier and has recently become obsessed with “sledding” (snowmobiling for us amateurs).
Rick and I met in high school when I was 16 and he was 18. Our parents wanted us to meet years earlier, but we were both against the idea of being set up by our parents at first. No one gave up on us meeting, so we finally gave in to quiet the crowds. The moment I met him is one I’ll never forget…it was just meant to be. We dated for 11 years, went to college and earned our degrees, joined the world of eager and hungry young professionals, established successful careers, and put all our selfish years behind us. It was time to create a family!
We began trying to have a family in January 2014. The first three months went by and I didn’t give it a second thought, since my body was coming down off of birth control. Another three months went by and I began to feel an awful pit in my stomach, just knowing in my heart that this wasn’t right…it shouldn’t be this difficult. I began ovulation tests on a monthly basis, reading diet books to increase my chances of getting pregnant, and becoming more acquainted with Google than I care to admit.
A year passed and I made the decision to talk to my doctor. I will never forget the look, on her face when I told her we had been trying for a year and I had still wasn’t pregnant. She cringed and did somewhat of a side eye-roll, which clearly expressed her professional opinion that we had a problem here. She referred me to her colleague at Conceptions and I trusted her opinion, after all she was my family doctor since I was a baby, and she cared for my grandmother, mother, sister and myself. She was the kind of doctor who hugged you every time she saw you, and I received the tightest hug from her upon leaving that appointment. I felt like she was trying to give me strength, knowing that I was about to embark on a very long and difficult journey.
My journey with Conceptions began in 2015, which I would like to break into parts to give a full color picture of our story. I will say that during that time, I felt alone, angry, and reduced to feeling “less than” and inadequate. I met a woman along the way through my journey, who had been through the same experiences I was going through. She became a very close and dear friend to me in a very short amount of time. We would meet for lunch, or coffee and talk about our experiences, our feelings and this incredibly difficult path that God put us on. We were able to connect on a level that was completely different than my best friends from childhood, from my parents, and even my husband. She was the only person in my corner who knew exactly how I was feeling, as I was feeling it. She made the journey so much more bearable and I have had an overwhelming desire to pay it forward. I was given such an incredible gift of support, companionship and understanding, and I want every couple to experience the same during their process of trying to conceive (TTC).
Please ask questions, talk about your story, share your experiences and become involved in this community of strong, amazing, beautiful women.
I’m so looking forward to meeting you, and I’m praying for you!