Egg Retrieval Day

The day was finally here. Surgery day. Egg retrieval day. I thought this morning would feel like Christmas, like I would spring out of bed and be glowing and beaming with excitement, but that wasn’t the case. I was exhausted, I could have slept for many hours more. Even in my state of exhaustion, bloating, […]

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Day 13

I have reached the peak of withstanding the bloating, and the peak of nauseousness. It’s day 13 of IVF and I’m due to drive to Littleton for my daily blood draw and ultrasound. I started my day early, so I could get this over with. I made it to the office, waddled inside, checked in […]

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Dana’s Story

I must say it has been a privilege to know and love Dana. She was a pillar of support and strength for me when I was making my way through my journey. She is extremely kind, giving and thoughtful, and I am honored that she has offered to share her experiences with me and our […]

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Throw Away the Masks

My story is raw and unfiltered, and I know it can be a bit scary or bring up too many emotions when reading. My purpose is to relate and offer compassion, not to conjur worry and fear. Each of our experiences are different and my goal is to connect our community. I strive to inspire […]

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IVF – Day 12

Today is day 12 of IVF. Today is better than yesterday…thank God. Day 11 was my most difficult day thus far. I cried myself to sleep on day 10, forgot to take my Tylenol PM which resulted in a horrible night of sleep, and on top of the emotions I was sinking into, I was […]

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IVF – Day 10

It’s now day 10 of IVF and I simply cannot control my emotions at this point. I feel like I’m on the verge of tears constantly, and for no good reason. I had another ultrasound appointment scheduled that morning and I was feeling anxious about the amount of time I would be laying in the […]

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Fast Forward

There have been so many moments in the last couple of months where I have felt compelled to write, but couldn’t. So many things have been coming up in my life lately. I have been facing new challenges, new experiences and trying to navigate through so many highs and lows…but I didn’t write. I felt […]

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A Letter To My Husband

My love, I don’t believe I’ll ever be able to express in words how truly gracious I am for the gift God gave me, in you. I am full of imperfections, and you once told me that those are the qualities you love most about me. My impulsivity, my extreme sensitivity, my outspokenness, and my […]

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When Mother’s Day Hurts

Mother’s Day is commonly a day of joy, a day of happiness, a day to celebrate the women who ought to be considered saints  for the sacrifices and unconditional love they provide to their families. Mother’s Day is a blessed and sacred holiday, and it should be! There truly isn’t anything more precious in this […]

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Injections Begin

I had nightmare after nightmare the night before our first injection. I had one dream that we mistakenly injected the evening medication in the morning, and ruined the entire process before it began. Then I had nightmares of needles coming at me from every angle, and feeling the horrible pain from each one. It was […]

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IVF Begins

After finishing all of my birth control pills, I was feeling extremely anxious about our next doctors appointment. I was due for an ultrasound and blood work…these were two hurdles I had to clear before we could move forward with injections. Rick and I showed up to our doctors office on a beautiful August morning…truly […]

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Her Double Rainbow Baby

Before sharing this moving story, I want to take a moment to express my sincerest gratitude to my friend for sharing her story. She is extremely brave, and her extraordinary strength to be so open and honest about her path, is something I admire more than I could ever express. I know that too many […]

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Kiss Me – I’m Infertile (I Mean Irish)

Let’s cheers to one holiday that isn’t focused on children, or a reminder of motherhood! Maybe it’s just me, but as every holiday approached I would begin talking myself down off the ledge, trying to take deep breaths and  run through all the scenarios of what might be coming my way in conversations. Who was […]

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The Life Changing Habit of Journaling

“Documenting details of your everyday life, becomes a celebration of who you are.” – Carolyn V. Hamilton I couldn’t agree more with this inspirational quote about journaling. I began documenting my journey shortly after we ventured down the road of IVF. I found myself consumed in my thoughts, consumed with worry, consumed with emotions, feelings […]

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International Women’s Day 2018

March 8th is International Women’s Day, and it’s a day to celebrate the achievements of women socially, economically, politically, and culturally, and it also promotes the call to action to accelerate gender parity; but this day also shines a light on another important aspect…CELEBRATING WOMEN’S ACHIEVEMENTS, PROMOTING AWARENESS, AND BRINGING COMMUNITIES OF WOMEN TOGETHER! I […]

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Good God

I remember walking into Church…my first day back since I had lost my path…lost sight of my faith…lost sight of my relationship with God…lost hope. I knew this was going to be an emotional day, because it was as if God called me to church himself. The title of the series we were learning about […]

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The Power in Experience – “It was never about me, it was about them”

It is human nature to feel sorry for oneself, and fall deeper into the abyss of emotions when we aren’t in a good place. But if we can find the strength within, to pick ourselves up and find the lesson in each experience, it will bring you closer to peace, closer to yourself, and closer […]

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Courage Doesn’t Always Roar

This quote made me think of so many women whose courage has given me strength over the past several years. It makes me feel proud and inspired by seemingly ordinary women, accomplishing the extraordinary each and every day. Know that your bravery is acknowledged, shared and celebrated.

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Audra’s Story

The journey a woman takes trying to conceive, is her own. It is her story, her pain, her heartache, her battle and hopefully her triumph. The journey and the road are different for everyone, and I want to create a place where these narratives can be shared. Whether you have experienced miscarriage, you were unable […]

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I Sent an Email…

I sent an email to our doctor asking what I needed to do, to transfer another embryo. It feels euphoric and I know it’s not something that we are ready for at this exact moment…but I have been having these strong pulls on my heart and my conscience, that it’s something I need to do. […]

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