I sent an email to our doctor asking what I needed to do, to transfer another embryo. It feels euphoric and I know it’s not something that we are ready for at this exact moment…but I have been having these strong pulls on my heart and my conscience, that it’s something I need to do.
I went away for a girls weekend to celebrate a bachelorette weekend, which was absolutely incredible. I needed time for me, to lose the schedule, lose the sense of putting myself last, stay up until 3 AM and enjoyyyyyyy myself. However, smack dab in the middle of this trip was a beer festival that included images back, to back, to back of children playing in the small river at the festival; fathers carrying their babies in their ergo baby carrier; and mothers taking photos of their little ones playing. I had no idea how strongly I would feel in that moment, when my babies weren’t with me, my husband was nowhere near, and I was just the designated driver with my girls at this festival of procreation.
In addition to this festival, I was surrounded by women just a bit younger than me, who were married and interested in the concept of children, labor, c-section and of course IVF. I was the only one at the bachelorette weekend who had gone through IVF, and naturally there were questions. I am a completely open book on the topic and answered everything as fully and completely as I could. I had no idea that the conversations of IVF, coupled with the beautiful babies being carried around by their daddies at the festival, would strike me like a lightening bolt!
Sunday came, and it was time to pack up and make the 3 hour drive home. One of my close friends rode with me, and we began talking about our families, life as a mom, and what the future would holds far as having more babies or not. A coworker once told me that when you are finished having children, it’s a hard “no”, but if you’re not done, you’re a bit wishy washy. I am wishy washy!!! I am nowhere near a “no”.
I went back to work on Monday and sent an email to my doctor asking what I am looking at if I want to transfer another embryo. I hadn’t really even clued Rick in on how serious I was…but I had learned over the past 17 years of our relationship that I needed to have a plan before approaching him with my crazy ideas. So, I emailed. My questions were
- How long will the process take?
- Will I be on injections again?
- What types of procedures will I be facing?
My doctor responded with the following answers
- 2-4 months depending on my test results as we work through the process
- Yes there will be injections, but fewer than before
- Blood tests, hysteroscopy, ultrasound and trial embryo transfer
He ended the email with the following valediction…
I too was smiling loudly. We have much to think about.